I know I should be grateful, but I'm torn apart!!!
I have already set my mind, body, heart and soul that I wasn’t going to make it.
I was so sure.
I only did it because I wanted to prepare myself for the worst, that I would and have already moved on.
The worst thing is, I already made plans. Quite expensive plans. :|
Now I feel like a ghost from my past has come back into my life, crushing and breaking my heart. Complicating everything I’ve planned out.
Okay. Maybe that was a little overboard. But stilllll!!!
I was so psyched to go to the US with my parents over the sembreak!!! I needed that break. I was so excited to walk around the streets of New York, get a sweater from Harvard, Yale and MIT, and just… breakaway. :|
It’s not that I don’t wanna be a part of it (MP). Of course the hell I am. It’s just that I don’t know how to break the news to my dad. He, of all people, would never understand what it’s all about. He’s a skeptic about the concept of education, leadership, and whatnot. IKR?
Plus, I was the one who insisted to let me go with them (expecting that I was going to be left alone at home, not making it in the Top 25, so at least I’d have something to be happy about, blah, blah, blah).
I’m sooo sure my dad’s going to get mad. Most especially because everything has already been arranged. :(
Well, it’s obviously clear that I’ve already made a choice. Weighing the pros and cons, 10 days in the US with my family will be surely fun, but New York won’t go anywhere. I can still visit back next year. Or not. :| And MARKPROF is… MARKPROF. :| How can anyone just throw out a once in a lifetime opportunity like it? To be part of the Top 25 Marketing Professionals is beyond over the top rewarding.
I don’t know why I’m even torn between the two right now. It’s just that I want them both. Why can’t we just get everything we want, all the time? :(
I just hope God would let and help me make the best decision, and hopefully allow us to make a refund for my tickets and bookings. :(
“When we first met, I didn’t want to get involved with anyone. I didn’t have the time or energy, and I wasn’t sure that I was ready for it. But you were so good to me, and I got swept up in that. And little by little, I found myself falling in love with you.”—Nicholas Sparks (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
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